my story.......
somewhere between my old personality & my new personality.
somewhere between everywhere and nowhere.
i am the moon, ever-changing — whole and broken.
i am the stars, bright, dark, unlimited.
i am yin. i am yang.
i am olivia. and for most of my life, i’ve felt
small.
stagnant.
afraid.
afraid of the thoughts that would come if i sat long enough to feel—
and afraid to feel the thoughts that would come.
so, the little girl inside of me ran far, far away,
only to wake up 24 years later and realize
the only place i had been running was away from myself.
you see, from a young age, we are taught
that there is only one universally correct way to live.
that there is success and there is failure.
that there is beautiful and there is ugly.
that there is black and there is white.
that there is perfect and there is imperfect.
but what about the grey?
the calm after the storm.
the greatness after the struggle.
the beauty in the mundane.
the success within the failure.
the imperfect-perfectness.
can we possibly know good from bad without knowing both?
when we live within the confines of our brains,
we are limited to our egoic minds —
the same mind that believes we must chase and achieve
as a means of being worthy enough to receive.
but when we surrender completely to our heart space
and follow the echoes from within,
we begin to move to the beat of the universe.
we begin to dance with the same universal forces that move mountains.
from this frequency, we become infinite.
limitless. alive. truly living.
we are able to capture the true beauty of the world —
the souls of the universe, humanity in its purest form.
as i journey through my own life, i have one wish:
to live in a way that lights my soul on fire.
and i believe the only way to do this
is by jumping into the void — the unknown —
and becoming one with it all: the good, the bad, and the ugly.
because only when i allowed myself to see the darkness,
i became the light.
a light that i hope to use to guide
anyone who stumbles across this page.
with love,
liv <3