a love letter to letting go

letting go is the death of who you thought you were, and the birth of who you came here to be.

it's the simple -yet scariest- void you'll be called to jump into, again and again.

it's a topic everyone talks about.

but what is it, really?

how do we let go?

why do we need to?

why does it feel like dying?

and why is it so essential for your ascension?

first, i want to say "letting go" is something i continue to struggle with every waking moment.

i continue to go down the rabbit hole of holding onto old negative habits as a means of comfort. consciously, the known feels safe to me. it's comforting knowing exactly where i'm gonna go, exactly where life is going to take me.

but the irony is

nothing magical was ever created from the known.

nothing worth living for has been the result of "playing things safe."

my soul knows exactly what i want in life

where i wanna go, how i wanna feel,

who i wanna be, how i wanna be loved,

and most importantly: how i want to love myself.

but my mind.....

my mind is a scared little girl.

so attached to her ego,

so afraid that if she jumps,

maybe there will be a black hole

at the end of the tunnel.

what if everything she ever dreamed of was a lie?

what if she dared to believe she was beautiful and she wasn't?

what if she followed her heart and it led her nowhere?

what if she opened up to who she really was and she was deemed unloveable?

what if true love isn't real?

what if true happiness isn't real?

what is there's nothing more to life than living?

"go to school," they said.

"get a job," they said- particularly one that looks nice.

"get married," they said.

if he checks all the boxes, he should make you happy.

"have kids," they said.

"retire," they said.

but what about me?

what about what i want?

where i wanna go.

what i wanna see.

the people i want to meet.

the love i wanna spread.

the beauty i wanna share.

the connection i wanna feel.

the things i wanna create.

the freedom i want to chase.

i guess this is the part when we choose-

do you wanna follow the book that was created for you

or do you wanna create your own?

this is how you let go

when you realize that the only thing you've been holding

is your own sense of safety

your own illusion of survival.

it's time to jump,

into the fear of the unknown.

because you deserve a life of magic.

you deserve illogical logic.

and this can only be accessed through no-mind

through awareness

through your soul.

welcome to the void.

~liv xx